Go get money somewhere else

if you're not having fun

This isn’t my first rodeo (actually it’s the fifth) but still I struggle with this.

Every once in a while I encounter the same stone along my “creative” journey. Luckily, thanks to experience I guess, every time takes me a little bit less to surpass it. 

The goal is to have fun, to explore ideas, to make them, to bring them to life, to try things, to learn. The goal is not the money, if it were, there is a thousand better places to earn money easier than this one. You don’t follow a creative path for that. I’m sure it will reach you when it has to, as I believe money is another form of energy, and you can receive it in the same way you receive love for what you do or beautiful words, they are kind of a byproduct. 

Why would somebody chose this path for the money? I don’t even think money can act as a great counterpart for what you’re doing. What you are doing is worth way more than money. You can go and stack up some boxes for money, or serve some coffees, but you shouldn’t develop your idea just for the sake of money. There must be something else.

In my case that’s fun, and a bit of an adrenaline hit ngl. It’s the fun that my projects bring me what matters the most, and that’s what I should use as a measuring stick for success. The adrenaline rush I feel every time a new door opens right in front of me, with another possibility to explore. That’s what I should be craving.

Money comes and goes, as any other kind of energy does. Fun stays, as any other memory does. Me being a miserable fuck in the present because I decided to put the focus on money instead of on the fun I have with my projects also stays attached to the project, as a memory.

Projects don’t last forever, as I can already tell due to the other three that are no longer active, so, why choose having a hard time? Better, why do I choose to give myself a hard time? Is not like somebody imposed me to do any of these things, it was me and only me. 

There is always a choice, whether it’s to continue with the project or not, whether it’s to have fun or not. I guess it’s up to me today, whether I’d prefer to sit on the rock and complain about it or fucking throw it away and keep having fun. 

So in summary, as a reminder for myself and whoever may find this useful, if you’re in the business of creating stuff, be in it for the fun (or whatever appeals to you other than money). Money can be a useless yardstick, and of course, can be earned somewhere else.